Thursday, January 03, 2013

Hey ya'll (mom).  I know blogs are going the way of the dodo but I really need a place to reflect, record, and process.  I wish I was a better journal writer-I love the "handwriting" aspect but alas I am a super speedy typist.

This last year has been a whirlwind-filled with lots of emotions and crazy ups and downs.  Seth and I were able to be a part of an event called The Color Run.  I learned a lot about myself, Seth, other people, and life.  I trust people more AND I trust people less.  This adventure is still on going-but mostly for Seth-as I have decided to just play my mom role.  I really enjoyed visiting different cities, working my butt off...and everything else that encompasses such a large event.

My father also passed away this year.  He was told he had a brain tumor on a Monday, biopsy on a Tuesday and on Friday had a massive cerebral hemorrhage.  He was in a coma for 4 weeks and we decided as a family with his horrible cancer diagnosis plus the damage from his hemorrhage that his quality of life would not be worth it.  I truly had moments of fear that he would wake up and see all the tubes and get super mad at me for letting him be such a burden.  That is what he was most afraid of being.  If he communicated anything to me the week of his biopsy it was that he did not want to burden anyone.  I like to think that his quick departure was granting his wish as a reward for a life well-lived.  I am a relatively strong person on the outside but when I'm alone and I think about my sweet father and never hearing his voice or seeing his face in this life-my heart breaks.  What I would give for a phone call and to hear him call me "Dex" again....I am forever grateful for the testimony I have of the Gospel and the blessings of the Temple.

I also had a baby this year.  William Jay King.  He is the easiest baby in the world and I love him to pieces.  I love my patient kids who have truly buoyed me up with this crazy and hectic time.  Isabella turned 12 and joined me in Young Women.  Sophia continues to wow us with her art and amazing intellect.  Carson LOVES football and definitely has the Boyle OCD with all things sports.  Nolan is as cute as can be and I can't resist him....I am wrapped around his finger.

This new year feels stressful but great.  I am excited to shift gears and enjoy more time doing things with my kids.  That being said here are my goals:

1.  Sweat every you "have to take a shower sweat".
2.  Temple. I know how much but I'm going to keep that to myself.

Just 2 goals.  Kind of random but if I can master those 2 I think things will work out right.

1 comment:

Denise said...

Angie-I am so glad you are back to blogging. I too miss your dad alot. He ALWAYS came up to me at family gatherings and asked about each and every one of my kids. I too am so grateful for the knowledge that families are forever. Love your goals. Happy New Year girl!